stay alive

Wed, 30 May 2007 21:03:24 GMT

woo hoo summer!

Wed, 14 Mar 2007 19:38:11 GMT

i know you don't mean that.

Sat, 20 Jan 2007 03:22:37 GMT

i could be so much more than this,
i wanna be so much more than this.

Fri, 22 Dec 2006 05:00:33 GMT

WHAT?

it's the holiday season.

Sun, 26 Nov 2006 17:44:15 GMT

and i don't want to be alone anymore.

Sun, 22 Oct 2006 19:01:12 GMT

what's so great about mountain view anyway?

and thus october break has begun

Mon, 16 Oct 2006 18:41:30 GMT

superior/miami/globe roadtrip was fantastic.
i swear i will never tire of my best friend.

sydnee is amazing.

october break...it's cold!
i think this week will be good.
very, very good.

today

Wed, 04 Oct 2006 18:52:43 GMT

when i needed someone, no one was there.

i feel very lost and alone.

locksmith? seamstress?

Sat, 23 Sep 2006 08:36:36 GMT

tonight was one of those nights that i'll remember for a long time...

there's nothing better than pleasant conversation with interesting, new (attractive) people.
and funny adventures...

"lock the door, emma!"

my gosh. i love my sister.
tonight was fantastic.

come what may

Sat, 02 Sep 2006 20:21:38 GMT

i think that if i didn't have friends or school, all i would do is watch moulin rouge over and over and over for the rest of my life.

Mon, 21 Aug 2006 05:29:28 GMT

i just had the weirdest, yet very vague, flashback.

it was from freshman year, and i was sitting in my bedroom on the floor using the laptop, listening to "the tide" by spill canvas.
i think it was over winter break, and that was the year that it poured almost every day of break. and i just remember sitting in my room, able to hear the rain, and watching it trickle down the wall of my bedroom. hahah.

and that reminded me of when i used to hang out with shawna. and how her house and car smell. and the first time i saw elf.

those were fun times.

nine more months.

Wed, 09 Aug 2006 23:51:36 GMT

i hate school.
i hate how all of my friends [who didn't already graduate] leave early.
and then i have no one to talk to for the second half of the day.
i guess this is what i get to prepare for next year.
except that i won't have anyone to talk to all day long.

hahaha

Sun, 06 Aug 2006 19:40:07 GMT

Sunday, August 6, 2006

Capricorn (Dec 22- Jan 19)

You are quite aware of the dilemma you now face. How can you honor the Moon with her need to flow like the tides while building much-needed structures in your life? How can you make love last, without disintegrating into comfortable arrangements that lack the emotional charge of a viable intimate partnership? It's time to develop your long-term plans for healthy relationships while still respecting the juice you get from your emotions.

radiance

Thu, 27 Jul 2006 07:53:40 GMT

as we all know, the rain last night was amazing. but i had a life changing experience from that summer storm.

i was unable to sleep due to the noise of the rain and thunder and the lightning i could see through my window. so around midnight i took my ipod outside to the back porch with me and just watched nature do her thing.
i sat outside for nearly an hour. i just sat there and watched the lightning and rain. the soundtrack to my experience was sigur ros's "takk..." album, specifically Glosoli and Hoppipolla. that music is pure, pure beauty. together the storm and the music was the epitome of perfection.
each time a lightning bolt would light up the purple sky, i got the biggest rush of chills all over.
as i sat, i thought a lot; about life, love, loss, pain, hope, and beauty.
it was then that i realized the incredible amount of beauty that was present in my life at that particular moment. how simple, yet unbelievably amazing those moments were. the storm and sigur ros pieced together my epiphony.
"god," i thought. "this is beauty. this is my life right now. this is the kind of moment that makes life worth living."
i don't know that i've ever gotten that much joy or fulfillment from a personal, "emma-only" experience.
i've had that elation and those beautiful moments with people who i love.
but i've never felt pure happiness on my own until god blessed us with that storm last night.

bestfriend...

Tue, 25 Jul 2006 05:48:38 GMT

don't leave me. don't go to BYU!
cause then we can't live in a house together furnished with ikea beauties.

i didn't think i'd ever say this...

Thu, 20 Jul 2006 00:21:38 GMT

diet coke has ruined my stomach and my life.
so i'm giving it up.
:[

Wed, 19 Jul 2006 19:34:34 GMT

i hate cheyenne. i hate her.

Wed, 19 Jul 2006 00:42:28 GMT

we shared the laughter and the pain
we even shared the tears.
you're the only one who really knew me at all.

homecoming dress!

Tue, 18 Jul 2006 08:23:25 GMT

it's a slightly different color, but i love it. i really hope i get this one.

i want real human moments.

Tue, 18 Jul 2006 05:37:20 GMT

help. i have done it again.
i have been here many times before.
i hurt myself again today.
and the worst partis there's no one else to blame.

be my friend.

it's time for me to go on a quest of soul searching and self-discovery.

Sun, 16 Jul 2006 09:31:15 GMT

i'll find better love.

and he'll be the one throwing up and crying and 2:30 a.m.

FREE.

Sat, 10 Jun 2006 08:45:46 GMT

i was thinking today, and i found the concept of freedom to be staggering. it's not just freedom as in "good ol' american freedom." not freedom of speech, freedom of religion, freedom of assembly, etc. those are wonderful freedoms to have, yes.
but the freedom that astounded me was the internal freedom. the kind of freedoms that are different for each person on earth.
everyone wants to be free. free of fear. free of pain. free of guilt. free of care. free of worry. free of regret. free to dance. free to play. free to move on. free to love.
just thinking about all of the exhilaration and exuberance that is encompassed in complete, perfect, beautiful freedom...it may have been the free-est i've ever felt.

Sun, 04 Jun 2006 07:08:57 GMT

the dogs next door will not shut up.

mf

Fri, 02 Jun 2006 09:02:50 GMT

Leave your name and:
1. I'll respond with something random about you
2. I'll challenge you to try something
3. I'll pick a color that I associate with you
4. I'll tell you something I like about you
5. I'll tell you my first/clearest memory of you
6. I'll tell you what animal you remind me of
7. I'll ask you something I've always wanted to ask you
8. If I do this for you, you must post this on yours--or you SHOULD but you don't have to...

AHHH!!!!

Fri, 13 Jan 2006 01:13:00 GMT

I'M GOING TO DISNEYLAND FOR MY BIRTHDAY!!!!

i'll be back sunday night!!

♥